WAKALAKAKA!!!
I'm feeling like I'm still in the same old situation. I'm speaking but no one's listening, it's the same old conversation. But I know there's no hope. I'm waiting for something, something to happen. I'm hating procrastinating but I can't find the motivation. But I know there's no hope. And you can't believe you're walking through this hell. Cause all you wish to be - wish you were someone else. And all hope's lost again. I'm seeing but not believing, is it just my imagination? I'm dreaming of devastation of this whole entire generation. But we know there's no hope!!!
We once were one but now we just are over. We'll talk things out, perhaps. I'll lend my shoulder Now none is what we have become, we're falling where nobody knows, inside the unknown, still falling. I'm shivering and shaking like a leaf within. In this life I've naturally grown bolder. In this life, desperation's frozen. As desperate as we are. They see no movement. Stagnant situations can be fuming.
Why do I feel so alone in a crowd of people I know. Is it wrong to feel so insecure so unappealing? Why walk around in disguise with a fake grin on my face? What would it prove? What would I gain? I'd still feel so out of place. Damned if I do. Damned if I don't. But I won't turn out like you. I need some answers. Cross the street and down the avenue, I stopped for the woman. Paid five bucks and got my palm read. And she said "You shouldn't be smiling boy... This life line say you're already dead. Just keep on moving forward never turning back". But with every step ahead I take, they pull me two steps back. They pull me two steps back!!!
No one knows what it's like. No one knows how it feels. Nothing else could compare to the fears I fear. And I've never been on my own. Struggling all alone. And all I have are these clothes on my back. I never had much. I never believe I could be someone, somehow, somebody... Said goodbye to all my childhood hopes and dreams. Time to grow up and accept real life responsibilities... Listen!!! Won't you listen to the things I have to say because it just might affect the way that you think about. How you live from day to day??? It may be easy for you. But it seems like hell to me!!!
This "cancer" is killing me!!! As much as it's killing you??? If it takes you away from me, I don't know what I would do. Just try for some peace of mind... But it's so hard to find. It's so hard to just sit and wait. And wait some more... Staring at the door; skim through the magazines; pretend like everything's gonna be alright... Although you know it won't be unstable... It's hard to be the one who's strong. Who's always got a shoulder to cry on. Who's got a shoulder for me?When I'm about to breakdown, you're never around. But maybe it's better that way. You've got enough to worry about. You've got your hands full don't you???
Don't you see??? This "cancer" is killing me!!! Like it's killing you mentally. Unstable... And all I really want to know is if she's going to be alright because she's been in there a long, long time. And I've been out here losing my mind. You're scared. You're frightened. You're so afraid of what he may say. But you try and be brave. For me sitting impatiently in the lobby of emergency, you burst on through that door with this look on your face I've never seen before. You explode into endless tears just like my feelings. Whisper in my ear "Baby, Baby, I've only got one more year". Unstable!!!
That's all... Sorry guys for being EMO...
K! Chowsz!!!
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